Wednesday, June 25, 2008 11:39 AM ♥


met God today !!!
had a msn chat with God today on my way home
not literally talking to him, but through the mind linking

siqin: God, what have i done wrong? are you punishing me for not studying so you are not blessing me in my study? i surrender everything to you le

God: i do bless you in your studies, just that you have high expectation for yourself.
like today, you pray to me that you will have time to study for the last few chapters and you did you forget to bring your notes i bless you , your friend happen to bring it

siqin: God, then why is my studies so lousy? i used to be the top few students in my sec school when i did not know you?
by doing so, i may backslide you know

God: but you didn't, did you?
surrendering to God is not just saying, " God here's my everything" then just give me your life
it is also about depending on me
in the name of Jesus, you will lose everything you have
your friends, relationship, studies, . . . . . .
all of them

siqin: God, i don't want to lose them all
especailly my studies, i spend many years on it
i want to be the top

God: see, you are not surrendering your studies completely
you will lose all these things because those are what you have obtain through your your own mean
all of these will come to past
however, when you surrender all these aspect to me i will bless you with even more things that can last for eternity
you will regain everything you have lost again in my name
but they will be much deeper in depth, greater in size

siqin: God, then can you please tell me what i should do?

God: stop being so lazy and put down your pride
be humble
you don't do well in you chemistry & physic because deep down in your heart you believe that you are very good in it because of your O-levels
you receive a lot of priases from people around you and you began to be slack
you thought you will always be the best

on the other hand
when you put down your pride, not studying because of wanting to gain any fame
but for me and also to purse knowledge
you will regain the desire to learn and eventually you will do well
learn to manage your time, don't think you can always manage it because you are able to in the past year

siqin: God, i m ready to do so
in your name, i want to be someone of strong faith and impact others

God also speak to me in Galatians 5:17

Application:
What i will do:
1) Stop slacking and start cracking
2)study for God
study because i want to gain knowledge, it is my passion
3)stop comparing and think you are always better than others

God also told me about one area that i must learn to overcome
that is " learn how to fall"
He was telling me that all these while i m always winning
i never fall that's why i must learn to do so in the KOG
He told me that only when i learn how to fall will i learn how to win

that's hard for me but i can really see God's word stirring my heart
no more slacking and back to be a mugger again
but this time as a
Christian + Mugger

Amen~


no more posting for me then
shall focus on my studies
and blog only in the weekend =)
siqin

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