Thursday, June 19, 2008 12:07 AM ♥


I am really glad that i have finally finished my revision for chemistry! At least one subject is down, 3 more to go then! I went back to EVSS C.O again today! Actually i was not doing anything much either, i merely accompanied siqin down because she wanted to practised some of her song piece. Basically, we wasted most of our time because of that troublesome security guard uncles. They simply do not allowed siqin and chin leong in, we were so pissed off. In fact, siqin wanted to tell the uncles that her photo is just right outside the school, at the poster. ( Her photo is up there because she is one of the two top scholar in 'o' level in EVSS) Anyway, our C.O instructor managed to get us in easily. Till now, i still cannot believe that the C.O in EVSS is worse than in TPJC. I simply cannot find any spare 'er hu' which is in good condition. This is worse than i ever imagine! I really want to thank Xinyi for her present. I really love the panda she bought for us in China! By the way, i love PANDA not because i love myself! Ruiling was asking me, " Why did you bought a statue of yourself?". I was simply stunned. How did my REAL identity got leaked out? Just kidding! Who do not know that i was the one who got myself this nickname? All thanks to the bottle of bitter lemon! Now, i am also as bitter as the lemon. I am called PANDA / _ _ _ _ _ _ PANDA. Sometimes called by Bryan _ _ _- _ _ _ ( i shall not exposed myself). Actually, i do not really mind being called all this nicknames. If i can bring fun and joy to the people around me, why not? I have tried not to think so much nowadays, just to let my life as simple as possible. I really do not want to make my life so complicated with lots of extreme thoughts. Let a day be a day... ... With all my heart, i just want to serve GOD faithfully. I want to accomplish the CG challenge, CG08 and the GREAT COMMISSION! With the strength from GOD, nothing is impossible!


GOD... ... when i am alone, you accompanied me ... ... when i am lost, you lead my way... ... when i am sad, you comforted me... ... when i am pouring out my woes, you are there to be my listening ear... ... when everybody ignores me, you stood there for me... ... i am really touched by your love for me! I backslided once and hurt your heart, but you chose to forgive and acknowledge me. I once hated you so much, but you still continue to love me. Your amazing love for me really touched the bottom of my heart... ... GOD, i am left with nothing, but you! You are my everything to me! Deep within me, i knew that what i used to possess were gone, everythings gone! I lost my smile, laughter, frienship, kinship and everything... ... everything is no longer the same. I can feel the change... ... i am no longer what i used to be... ... someone who was used to be a happy-go-lucky person... ...someone who would carry a smile on the face... ... someone who tries to bring joy and laughter to people... ...

-siqi
i have lost the trust in people...
who can i turn to...

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