Wednesday, November 24, 2010 
4:56 PM ♥
Know what, God answered my prayer . . . maybe not really a prayer, but he DEFINTELY free me from all the hatred and anger I had for the past few months
After promising to let all the hatred go, I really prayed and ask God to guide, as well as to direct me. I am too weak to undergo such obstacles on my own.I cried, I seek, keep asking God to help me. I fell once, and I seriously think that was enough. One more fall with God and I will just collapse for good. Really want thank God for standing by all the while. I wasnt suffering along, he was beside me, all the way. But I do feel hurt when the kind of reaction I recieved wasn't what I have expected. I merely expect a reconcilliation, no matter whose fault is it. I don't want to be caught in the blame game again and making the cycle go round again. Back to what I was saying, I was really hurt when I got the response and I just cried. I cried because I was sad that things could't get to normal and that I was happy that I finally have the courage to take the first step. Praise to the Lord! At least now I know that I have done my part and is no longer me who is obstructing the reconcilliation. I merely try to be a good salt and light. I am far from being godly. But at the end of the whole thing, I know that God grow me in my reliance towards him and my faith in him. I feel like I have just awoken from the darkest nightmare of my life =)
siqin
Saturday, November 20, 2010 12:10 AM ♥
Does it consider as a pleasant surprise, knowing that people around do not know that I’m a Christian? Perhaps it’s a wake-up reminder for me that I’m simply not behaving like one. It’s quite true that since the end of semester one, I have been engaged in various non-spiritual activities which unconsciously drifted me away from God. In additional to that, I’m pre-occupied on the Saturday for dragon-boat practice, constantly missing out the chance to come back to God again. Today is really the day I need to repent and start living for God again.
siqi.
♡ 
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010 4:56 PM ♥
Know what, God answered my prayer . . . maybe not really a prayer, but he DEFINTELY free me from all the hatred and anger I had for the past few months
After promising to let all the hatred go, I really prayed and ask God to guide, as well as to direct me. I am too weak to undergo such obstacles on my own.I cried, I seek, keep asking God to help me. I fell once, and I seriously think that was enough. One more fall with God and I will just collapse for good. Really want thank God for standing by all the while. I wasnt suffering along, he was beside me, all the way. But I do feel hurt when the kind of reaction I recieved wasn't what I have expected. I merely expect a reconcilliation, no matter whose fault is it. I don't want to be caught in the blame game again and making the cycle go round again. Back to what I was saying, I was really hurt when I got the response and I just cried. I cried because I was sad that things could't get to normal and that I was happy that I finally have the courage to take the first step. Praise to the Lord! At least now I know that I have done my part and is no longer me who is obstructing the reconcilliation. I merely try to be a good salt and light. I am far from being godly. But at the end of the whole thing, I know that God grow me in my reliance towards him and my faith in him. I feel like I have just awoken from the darkest nightmare of my life =)
siqin
Saturday, November 20, 2010 12:10 AM ♥
Does it consider as a pleasant surprise, knowing that people around do not know that I’m a Christian? Perhaps it’s a wake-up reminder for me that I’m simply not behaving like one. It’s quite true that since the end of semester one, I have been engaged in various non-spiritual activities which unconsciously drifted me away from God. In additional to that, I’m pre-occupied on the Saturday for dragon-boat practice, constantly missing out the chance to come back to God again. Today is really the day I need to repent and start living for God again.
siqi.
♡
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