Thursday, June 19, 2008 
1:06 AM ♥
Double post on the same day usually means that there is something important that i want to share. But as for now, it is not about something important or whatever. I have just did some reflection, and i merely wanted to share. My sharing has simply no offense to anyone!
To be honest, i used to be a cheerful person in the past, i do not emo like what i do now. Perhaps when people grew up, people began to be more mature of their thinking, this is the time when troubles pour in. However for my case, it does not seems so. There are many regrets i had in my life, one of them is that i did not cherished Cai Juan as my shepherd in the past. In the past, i have a very poor attitude to my shepherd, Cai Juan (ex-shepherd). But she always seems to tolerate my rubbish again and again. Perhaps being classmates and C.O mates from Secondary one to four, in addition of having the same age, we are much closer that i can really feel free to share my feelings with her. I really miss those time! I remember that i used to reject her again and again when she invited me for service, i am feeling pretty bad even after now. Even though i was her 'sheep' only for a short while, but i really appreciate her alot. I was really so keen to meet her after the IMMERSE concert when i knew she was coming. She was the one who never gave up on me... ... she introuduce the best GOD to me. I really thank her a lot for what she used to do for me in the past!
I san still remeber the first night in the OASIS camp, while the others were asleep, i ran out of the room and sat on the stairs near our room. I was holding a pen by my left hand, and a notebook by my right hand, but no words seem to be written. At that moment, i really hope that there was someone who i can really talked to. In fact, i was really desperate to talk to someone. But who? I can only write out what i could have possibly said down the notebook, hoping that GOD can understand the way i felt. Seriously, the feeling was terrible. I suffered from this problem almost every night... ...
Maybe i am still not quite know my current shepherd, Nicole, so well yet. It is really quite hard for me to get into the details like that. I am not someone who can reveal myself to the others easily. Only those who won my trust allow me to share with them more easily.
Haiz... ...
-siqi
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Thursday, June 19, 2008 1:06 AM ♥
Double post on the same day usually means that there is something important that i want to share. But as for now, it is not about something important or whatever. I have just did some reflection, and i merely wanted to share. My sharing has simply no offense to anyone!
To be honest, i used to be a cheerful person in the past, i do not emo like what i do now. Perhaps when people grew up, people began to be more mature of their thinking, this is the time when troubles pour in. However for my case, it does not seems so. There are many regrets i had in my life, one of them is that i did not cherished Cai Juan as my shepherd in the past. In the past, i have a very poor attitude to my shepherd, Cai Juan (ex-shepherd). But she always seems to tolerate my rubbish again and again. Perhaps being classmates and C.O mates from Secondary one to four, in addition of having the same age, we are much closer that i can really feel free to share my feelings with her. I really miss those time! I remember that i used to reject her again and again when she invited me for service, i am feeling pretty bad even after now. Even though i was her 'sheep' only for a short while, but i really appreciate her alot. I was really so keen to meet her after the IMMERSE concert when i knew she was coming. She was the one who never gave up on me... ... she introuduce the best GOD to me. I really thank her a lot for what she used to do for me in the past!
I san still remeber the first night in the OASIS camp, while the others were asleep, i ran out of the room and sat on the stairs near our room. I was holding a pen by my left hand, and a notebook by my right hand, but no words seem to be written. At that moment, i really hope that there was someone who i can really talked to. In fact, i was really desperate to talk to someone. But who? I can only write out what i could have possibly said down the notebook, hoping that GOD can understand the way i felt. Seriously, the feeling was terrible. I suffered from this problem almost every night... ...
Maybe i am still not quite know my current shepherd, Nicole, so well yet. It is really quite hard for me to get into the details like that. I am not someone who can reveal myself to the others easily. Only those who won my trust allow me to share with them more easily.
Haiz... ...
-siqi
♡
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