Saturday, June 14, 2008 
10:55 AM ♥
After a very good night sleep, finally my brain can go back to normal. I was so tired yesterday, i have to get off from sleep at 7+am because i am having tuition at 8am. I can feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier. I want to hibernate! But anyway, my wish was granted. I slept from 8pm all the way to 10.30am. The feeling of being refreshed was great! I am ready to go again!
Personally, i felt that i have been growing a lot ( maybe not a lot). After overcoming my problems which have almost killed me, my thinkings mature a lot. There will always be a rainbow after the storm! I feel that the change in me can be an inspiring story, to save more souls, knowing about Jesus! I used to be someone who has low self esteem, i lead a meaningless life without knowing what i really want. But during the camp, God changed me. I am now filled with confidence and also leading my life with a big dream. I dare to dream big! I want to build a church in China! In fact, everyone can really be like me. It is the choice that makes a difference... ...
To be honest, i intended to commit suicide. At that time, i was dwelling in self-pity. I though that the world hates me, there was no solution on Earth that can solve my problem, i was all alone by myself. BUT I WAS SO WRONG! God is always there for me, God is always beside me, i chose to ignore him. I chose to magnify my problem so big, thinking that God cannot help me. I chose to believe that knowing God was a mistake, he brings misery into my life. ALL THIS WERE VERY WRONG! God has a plan for everyone. God let me grow a lot physically, emotionally and spiritually. This is a test for me by God. I am now more commited and have more faith on God, i am an overcomer.
With the limited time i have now ( to rush to somerset), i guess i have to end off now. Exams are coming round the corner...oh crap!
-siqi
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Saturday, June 14, 2008 10:55 AM ♥
After a very good night sleep, finally my brain can go back to normal. I was so tired yesterday, i have to get off from sleep at 7+am because i am having tuition at 8am. I can feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier. I want to hibernate! But anyway, my wish was granted. I slept from 8pm all the way to 10.30am. The feeling of being refreshed was great! I am ready to go again!
Personally, i felt that i have been growing a lot ( maybe not a lot). After overcoming my problems which have almost killed me, my thinkings mature a lot. There will always be a rainbow after the storm! I feel that the change in me can be an inspiring story, to save more souls, knowing about Jesus! I used to be someone who has low self esteem, i lead a meaningless life without knowing what i really want. But during the camp, God changed me. I am now filled with confidence and also leading my life with a big dream. I dare to dream big! I want to build a church in China! In fact, everyone can really be like me. It is the choice that makes a difference... ...
To be honest, i intended to commit suicide. At that time, i was dwelling in self-pity. I though that the world hates me, there was no solution on Earth that can solve my problem, i was all alone by myself. BUT I WAS SO WRONG! God is always there for me, God is always beside me, i chose to ignore him. I chose to magnify my problem so big, thinking that God cannot help me. I chose to believe that knowing God was a mistake, he brings misery into my life. ALL THIS WERE VERY WRONG! God has a plan for everyone. God let me grow a lot physically, emotionally and spiritually. This is a test for me by God. I am now more commited and have more faith on God, i am an overcomer.
With the limited time i have now ( to rush to somerset), i guess i have to end off now. Exams are coming round the corner...oh crap!
-siqi
♡
February 2006