Friday, June 13, 2008 3:07 PM ♥


back from camp with my life transformed!!!

God really touch mii in those 4 days and also today
i met all my camp objective and i rmbr how he touches me on the 2nd day during the alter camp as well as in all the sermon he was like speaking to mii directly face to face
he solve my problem
gave mii new challenges
give mii my new direction
lotts of blessing
lotts of new friend
better understanding within camp group
deep sharing
and he change my thinking completely

but i must admit that i came back with lotts of injury
i gave up many things in my life which is so damn impt to mii
it is once my purpose of life
something i m really proud of
like STUDY i have not strt studyinfor midyear and I M ONLY LEFT ONE WEEK TO STUDY !!!!
I M SERIOULY DAMN STRESS OK !!!!
i gave up my relationship which has lasted for more than 2 years
it really break my heart when i say i want a break up
it really hurt mii & i admit that i broke down
when God speak to mii during the last night
i really broke down before him asking lotts of why
why must i give up??
why can't i continue to be who i m??
i m bleeding right now
since the llast nite of the camp i ve been bleeding
God didn take away all the pain T_T
my heart really hurts
but i ll rmbr him always
for his love he used to give mii
lotts of care, concern, encouragement, jokes, gift & memories
i m afriad that i may break down and cry anytime
becuz sometimes the pain since to overflow mii
so much that i can no longer endure
GOD HELP MII PLEASE . . . T_T

but no longer how difficult it is i will try my very best to endure
because GOD IS THE 1st IN MY LIFE!!!
THE PAIN I M SUFFERING IS NOTHING AS COMPARED TO THE PAIN HE HAD WHEN HIS CHILDREN CHOOSE NOT TO ACKNOWLEDGE HIM AS THEIR FATHER
ALL THE EVIL DEEDS THAT MAN DID

GOD I LOVE U !!!!

siqin

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