Monday, March 14, 2011 
1:44 AM ♥
I’m now in a state of confusion. Things may seems pretty straightforward, but somehow somewhat there is this complexity which I find it hard to explain. Perhaps things happen too fast that I’m not mentally prepared for the changes. I’m not trying to imply that changes are bad, but when things happen a bit way ‘too fast’, I’m kind of overwhelmed by it. This really brings out the point that the world continues to spin and people continue to move on whether we decide we stay put or move forward. Seriously, no one is a necessity. The world is spinning just fine with or without me.
~siqi~
Wednesday, March 02, 2011 2:45 AM ♥
I am not a sentimental person in nature. But perhaps the long hours of me doing nothing brought me to do some thinking. I feel really sad when I recalled how I used to be closed to ‘this person’, but all of a sudden things become so awkward now, walking pass each other with a superficial greeting like ‘Hi’ or ‘How are you doing lately?’. Seriously, I don’t need superficial friends.
Things got worse when it occurs on people I know from the Church. ‘Once bitten, twice shy’, how can I not be wary when I try to make friends in Church?! I know that not all the people I know are like that, but I can’t help myself but to be fearful of them. It creep me out to think that for a moment we could be like a ‘family’, but in another moment we could be familiar strangers. How scary is that?!
Many people think I am someone who is very ‘on’ and steady. But the truth is that I fear that if I don’t join in, I may never get the opportunity to do things with that person again. I’m afraid of losing a friend to time. I think I have many failed friendship to time. Time flushes every commonality and bland every relationship. What are left are basically memories … …
-siqi
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Monday, March 14, 2011 1:44 AM ♥
I’m now in a state of confusion. Things may seems pretty straightforward, but somehow somewhat there is this complexity which I find it hard to explain. Perhaps things happen too fast that I’m not mentally prepared for the changes. I’m not trying to imply that changes are bad, but when things happen a bit way ‘too fast’, I’m kind of overwhelmed by it. This really brings out the point that the world continues to spin and people continue to move on whether we decide we stay put or move forward. Seriously, no one is a necessity. The world is spinning just fine with or without me.
~siqi~
Wednesday, March 02, 2011 2:45 AM ♥
I am not a sentimental person in nature. But perhaps the long hours of me doing nothing brought me to do some thinking. I feel really sad when I recalled how I used to be closed to ‘this person’, but all of a sudden things become so awkward now, walking pass each other with a superficial greeting like ‘Hi’ or ‘How are you doing lately?’. Seriously, I don’t need superficial friends.
Things got worse when it occurs on people I know from the Church. ‘Once bitten, twice shy’, how can I not be wary when I try to make friends in Church?! I know that not all the people I know are like that, but I can’t help myself but to be fearful of them. It creep me out to think that for a moment we could be like a ‘family’, but in another moment we could be familiar strangers. How scary is that?!
Many people think I am someone who is very ‘on’ and steady. But the truth is that I fear that if I don’t join in, I may never get the opportunity to do things with that person again. I’m afraid of losing a friend to time. I think I have many failed friendship to time. Time flushes every commonality and bland every relationship. What are left are basically memories … …
-siqi
♡
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