Saturday, September 18, 2010 2:12 AM ♥


An official end of the 5 days clinical placement at KK Hosiptal.









I'm random enough to join the CGH people for dinner at Bedok Simpang.


-siqi-





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Thursday, September 09, 2010 3:04 AM ♥


Just stepped into my brand new uni life a few days ago. I was rather kind of busy with the lectures and tutorial, including finding the venues for lesson. Staying in hall comfortably now because I have bought the essential things into the hall, and have mopped the floor already. In the past few days, I can really see how ui life really change my way of life such that I sleep lesser now and more focused. I have tons of things to do such that I don't even want waste my time on dwelling in the unhappy things. I keep telling myself that, " Once I graduate from NTU, I want to go for further studies in countries like Canada or UK" And i am really glad that I think that way, because I feel much stronger

Honestly just now I was reading through her blog. Reason is just to see if I am okay already. I know this sound stupid but ever since I got myself into so much trouble, I keep telling myself that my life worth something more. I definetely deserve more than what I have now because I can have a bright future ahead. When I saw the different kind of experience that they had together, the first thing I thought is that ' I rather not have any experiences that are similar to whaever they have done before'. I know I sound rather selfish but I don't want to make things so difficult for myself. The busy life I am having now is the best medicine for my 'heart problem'.
I just want to say that if I knew that what I thought was unique to me is merely a replication of their past experience then I rather not have it at all. I rather not went to feed the monkey, go genting together, . . . . . . I want to treat myself better from today onward, I swear. I want to find back who I used to be before I was hurt to this extent.

I believe God loves me more than this and He has a much better plan for me than this =)

Thank Shiyu for always listening to me and comfort me. I am really glad that you are always there to help me up when I break down. Love you !!! And thank Jia Hao for listening to me too when I suddely just emo. At least I manage to get out of my emo-ness and not continue dwell in my negative worse. I know it was really very radom. Not forgetting yujun, thank for talking to me too. At least it helps to distract me a bit. =)

anway off to bed now because I seriously have no mood for CBC811 Forsenic Science now . . .
BOO!!!

siqin

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Sunday, September 05, 2010 5:38 PM ♥


I guess blogging is the best way to rent out the unhappiness and frustration that is within me w/o having to know peoples' response when they know about it



I find it hard, real hard to accept some of the things that have happened in my life. I wonder why am I being so hard on myself because verbally and mentally, I have chose to go on with life. But deep down in my heart, things seem as if I have never moved on. I carry all the bits and pieces of disappointment along with me. The worse part is that I can't express my disappointment out openly for the fear of hurting other people in the process. God did help me to get over with it a bit, but I will uncontrollably let my emotion overwhelm me when things trigger me to recall the events that had happened. And i agree that curiosity kills a cat because many times, out of curiosity, I get to know things that I will be better off not knowing it. And the most deadly source is none other than facebook ( that i go all the time) and blog post. I always thought that I am ready to face it but it always end up affecting my mood.

Siqin

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