Bows, ribbons and blood.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010 1:54 PM ♥

Pictures from Cynosure Ball 2010

somehow I lost the momentum to blog about my life

After having a htht yesterday, I realise how much God has been doing in my life. I always feel so inferior in front of the other brothers and sisters because I always feel that I have not being a good salt & light. I have not been keeping up with my spiritual habits etc. But through the conversation yesterday, I see how God helps me to change my hatred and anger within me into peace.

God, do you know I feel so weak. I need your strength to continue fight against my anger & hatred, couage to continue walking this uneven route, wisdom to handle situation and faith to believe that you have the best installed for me. God I am sure you see how much I give in & struggle to give in. I am so fearful of recalling my Bali Trip now. Everytime I think of it all my hurts will just burst out. I trust you Lord, that one day you will heal this wound in me.

siqin

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Wednesday, August 25, 2010 11:32 AM ♥

I told myself that I will never forget what you have did to me, because it hurt me so much by the fact that you choose to hide things from me. Somemore, when I was not around in Singapore. You betray the trust I have in you, that you will be honest to me. Just like how honest I am to you.

siqin

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Tuesday, August 24, 2010 1:39 AM ♥

Random pic uploaded
Bali Trip & arcade photos credit to Tien Ling, Corrina b'dea gift aka Qin Pei fan club poster
photos credit to Pui Wah. The rest to me !
K-session photos credit to Zixu

5D4N Bali Trip

6 Month Anniversary + Friday Date

Dinner + Arcade with some SPMS peeps

Making of Corrina's b'dea + Qin Pei's fan club poster + Corrina's b'dea surprise

K-session with Cuties

I acknowledge that I was super upset by the fact that I never got into the hall camp. I mean I am super pissed off. But this means more time for me to do what I want before uni life unfold .

Have been planning to go exercise so that I can wear my new sport shoe but it always fail. I always can't find the motivation to push myself to exercise. Probably will try jogging these few days.

Well, maybe I really can't take disappointment. That's why I told myself not to ever have expexctation or hope on people again, because I fear disappointment. I am afraid I can't handle them. If I don't expect anything that if I get it, I take it as a bonus for me. If don't, I won't be so affected by it. I know this is so selfish of me, but probably this is the best for me now.

Don't get it wrong, it doesn't mean I don't trust people or blaming other people. It is just me. I just want to help myself cope better for now.

God, I pray you will take the disappointment in my heart away soon.

siqin

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Friday, August 20, 2010 2:39 PM ♥

came across the following videos through fb, thought that they are kind of interesting =)

Siqin

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Wednesday, August 11, 2010 11:08 PM ♥

back from family 3D2N Genting trip
overall it was okay, maybe because I feel too old for the theme park already
but I am glad that I managed to finish all the roller coaster rides this time
and somehow I spent more time chilling in Starbucks this time round and much lesser on shopping

and did I mention that I will be flying off tomorrow to Indonesia with Phyllis and Tien Ling tomorrow morning for our holiday trip before uni life starts

time really flies and I can't believe it is coming to an end
in the begining I keep complaining having too much time and nothing to do
After going for JC prom and worked a few days as flyer distirubutor, I went to recruit express to look for a more "long term" job
on 4th Jan I went into StarHub Nobel building as an A.A, undergo training with all the starhub peeps
we had so much outing together and this is also where I got to know Dear because we are from the same batch
I had lots and lots of fun with the starhub peeps
learn quite a lot of craps and stupid stuff from the people
before I knew it, 3 months have passed and a while later again was my birthday
I had a wonderful celebration with the starhub people and with my Dear
and on my birthday I went Taiwan with the lovely cuties
I was really sad when I came back because Starhub was no longer the same, some people have left and more are leaving
but this is also when Dear give me a surprise by bringing me onto a cruise trip
I continued to work until june then i quited with dear and went Genting with his family
after that went for my uni camps and made a lot of friends, nice people who will be with me during my uni life
went Genting again, but this time with my family and will be going Bali tomorrow with my uni friends

I told Dear yesterday that I really don't want time to pass so fast because I just can't bear to leave my current lifestyle
I can't bear staying in hall for one year and only returning home once a week
I can't bear having to push myself so hard to do well in uni
I can't bear to make new friends all over again
I can't bear not to be able to see Dear that often again since I will be staying in hall
I can't bear to change

siqin

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1:55 AM ♥

It feels so great back in Singapore again. For goodness sake, I am not patriotic. But I simply miss having an adequate supply of water which does not smell like swimming pool water (the water I have at Genting) and Singaporeans who behaves more or less in an orderly manner (e.g. Singaporeans do queue for the toilets).
Today unit care group was held at Istana Park for a change. It felt pretty good when it was out of campus. Care group is great!

-siqi-

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Tuesday, August 03, 2010 10:17 PM ♥

went out to have dinner with Mummy today at a near-by food centre, followed by night market
nothing special but I am glad that I finally spent some time with my family
have been so caught up with camps that I hardly stay at home for more than 3 hours, sometimes even not at all
back from my camps but I am going to apply for my last camp, Hall camp
I am died tired now even though I have been waking up very late the past few days
decided to upload more photos since I have nothing else better to do too

cuties dinner + dinner treat for huang lao shi