Friday, February 06, 2009 
11:12 PM ♥
I am neither a quiet nor talkative person. I can be noisy and quiet at times, depending on my mood. I seem to have endless things to talk about with the people in my class or care group members, but I just find it very hard to talk to Nicole. Firstly, I find her intimidating. Even though I have tried several times to change this kind of mindset, it doesn’t seem to work yet. Perhaps I am just a weird person, but I would just tried to hide my weakness in front of her; trying to put up a brave front. I guessed this is a way I used to do it to protect myself after all the bad experiences in my secondary school years. Secondly, I am afraid that my big mouth would offend her or something like that. I’m too use in ‘suan-ing’ people since this is the way we communicate with one another in class. I know that it could be hurtful at times by others, so I tried to keep my mouth shut in case I slip off my tongue. Thirdly, I just find it hard to talk to someone who has authority over me. I find it as a form of ‘surrendering’ my life to them that I dislike a lot.
Since young, my parents used the ‘hard’ approach to bring me out. So I would say that the ‘hard’ way do not works for me, I will just retaliate even more. For those who know I well would know that I’m someone who does not accept defeat. I would say that the ‘soft’ approach may work better since I am an emotional person. Thus, this is why I am able to confess about my life to people such as the people in my class, my aunt… … those people who possess no threats to me.
-siqi
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Friday, February 06, 2009 11:12 PM ♥
I am neither a quiet nor talkative person. I can be noisy and quiet at times, depending on my mood. I seem to have endless things to talk about with the people in my class or care group members, but I just find it very hard to talk to Nicole. Firstly, I find her intimidating. Even though I have tried several times to change this kind of mindset, it doesn’t seem to work yet. Perhaps I am just a weird person, but I would just tried to hide my weakness in front of her; trying to put up a brave front. I guessed this is a way I used to do it to protect myself after all the bad experiences in my secondary school years. Secondly, I am afraid that my big mouth would offend her or something like that. I’m too use in ‘suan-ing’ people since this is the way we communicate with one another in class. I know that it could be hurtful at times by others, so I tried to keep my mouth shut in case I slip off my tongue. Thirdly, I just find it hard to talk to someone who has authority over me. I find it as a form of ‘surrendering’ my life to them that I dislike a lot.
Since young, my parents used the ‘hard’ approach to bring me out. So I would say that the ‘hard’ way do not works for me, I will just retaliate even more. For those who know I well would know that I’m someone who does not accept defeat. I would say that the ‘soft’ approach may work better since I am an emotional person. Thus, this is why I am able to confess about my life to people such as the people in my class, my aunt… … those people who possess no threats to me.
-siqi
♡
February 2006