Sunday, November 09, 2008 
12:54 AM ♥
I still remember the time when I was feeling very moody and down, a group of people came up to me and said, “ You are special.”, “ No matter what happens, we would be always behind you” and “We accept the way you are”. Guess who they are? Of course, they are my classmates from 08S07.
I am simply so touched by their words. These little encouragements really give me a strong pat on my back that encourage me to move on with life, and continue to give my best. All thanks to them, I would be able to get out of the darkest time of my life so quickly. I simply thanked them so much. I really thank God for them so much that there is this group of people who are always behind me. Thank God for love that I do not deserve at all.
Unfortunately, there is still an undeniable truth. My class simply holds a larger portion in my heart than the care group. There is nothing wrong with the people in the care group; it is just me who is weird. I simply do not feel a sense of belonging in the care group, and this feeling gets stronger and stronger each time. I feel intimidated each time when I go for care group, I am also not very sure why is this happening so. I feel worthless in the care group; I feel that I am just nobody. I feel so invisible that I could simply fade away without anyone else knowing. I do not even want to tell anybody that I am leaving for India next Friday. Sometimes, I just hope that I could fade away without anyone knowing. This can show how much am I really part of the group.
I know for sure that my classmates would never leave anyone behind or alone. I am so glad that I was always informed with the latest activities that we have organized; they make me feel that I am part of them. But the care group does not make me feel this way. Basically, I could always emo or stone whenever I am with the care group. But whenever I am with my classmates, I could always smile or laughed. That is the contrast that I have noticed! Eventually, we would prefer to hang around with the people who made us laugh the most. True enough, 08S07 is the ONLY class that can make me smile!
-siqi
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Sunday, November 09, 2008 12:54 AM ♥
I still remember the time when I was feeling very moody and down, a group of people came up to me and said, “ You are special.”, “ No matter what happens, we would be always behind you” and “We accept the way you are”. Guess who they are? Of course, they are my classmates from 08S07.
I am simply so touched by their words. These little encouragements really give me a strong pat on my back that encourage me to move on with life, and continue to give my best. All thanks to them, I would be able to get out of the darkest time of my life so quickly. I simply thanked them so much. I really thank God for them so much that there is this group of people who are always behind me. Thank God for love that I do not deserve at all.
Unfortunately, there is still an undeniable truth. My class simply holds a larger portion in my heart than the care group. There is nothing wrong with the people in the care group; it is just me who is weird. I simply do not feel a sense of belonging in the care group, and this feeling gets stronger and stronger each time. I feel intimidated each time when I go for care group, I am also not very sure why is this happening so. I feel worthless in the care group; I feel that I am just nobody. I feel so invisible that I could simply fade away without anyone else knowing. I do not even want to tell anybody that I am leaving for India next Friday. Sometimes, I just hope that I could fade away without anyone knowing. This can show how much am I really part of the group.
I know for sure that my classmates would never leave anyone behind or alone. I am so glad that I was always informed with the latest activities that we have organized; they make me feel that I am part of them. But the care group does not make me feel this way. Basically, I could always emo or stone whenever I am with the care group. But whenever I am with my classmates, I could always smile or laughed. That is the contrast that I have noticed! Eventually, we would prefer to hang around with the people who made us laugh the most. True enough, 08S07 is the ONLY class that can make me smile!
-siqi
♡
February 2006