Bows, ribbons and blood.

Friday, October 31, 2008 11:21 AM ♥

Happy Birthday to Sherilyn =)

unable to join the class to celeb her birthday becasue i got tution later
if i miss any of these tution i will be in deep trouble

so got to revise my work again before i attend the tution so that i don't look like an idiot there
to those celeb later, have a nice day !!!

siqin

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Thursday, October 30, 2008 4:10 PM ♥

Today’s mother tongue ‘A’ level paper was amazing. I mean it turns out not as hard as what I have expected. Even though question 4 in the paper 1 did give me a shocked, it was still within my means to write something relevant to it. I am like a crazy person who wrote tons and tons of stuff, of course they were relevant. It is no longer about the variety of ideas we have, but the depth of it. Surprisingly, I wrote a total of 7 pages. I mean really filled pages. I wanted to write more than that; however I realized that I left merely a few more pages to use. So, I cannot fully elaborate on all the points that I intended to include in the essay. What a disappointment! Paper 2 was still alright, still manageable for me. I may not score an ‘A’ for this mother tongue paper, but a ‘B’ would not be as bad as well.

After the mother tongue ‘A’ level, I went to watch “High School Musical 3’ at century square, Shaw. I heard many people talking about how nice it was, but I was so wrong. I find this movie too crappy. I totally do not enjoy watching this movie; it was too boring for me. I believe that the movie ‘Butterfly lovers’ would be better than this. The movie is definitely not as nice as I expected. Now, I have to agree with Calista. No offense, but to my personal opinion, I think this movie totally do not worth spending on. Not all the songs were nice, maybe just one or two sounds alright to me. I feel that this time round, the movie was a bit to exaggerating. So, I spent most of the time eating my sweet pop corns, crunchy nachos and freezing cup of coke. Time passes really slowly.

After the movie, I went to pizza hut to grab some bites. In fact, I was kind of bloated after finishing the whole cup of medium size coke. You know that I am a coke addict, how could I possibly resist this temptation? I ordered this desert know as the ‘Heavenly desire’. It was an ice- cream with such a wonderful name. But trust me. The taste was not as good as what you possibly imagined. I have no idea what I was eating half of the time. Other than this strong flavor of strawberry, I could not taste anything else. It was way too bland. Yuck. Now I begin to hate ice cream now.

-siqi

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Wednesday, October 29, 2008 4:59 PM ♥

Chinese mother tongue ‘A’ level is just tomorrow. I am not excited about it at all. Perhaps the feeling of excitement would come when I was still in my Secondary 4 years. My Chinese teacher in my Secondary school, Mrs Tan, would usually drill us way before the mother tongue ‘O’ level. Maybe this was why my class was fully prepared before the time comes. Even though the school drilled us only a week before the paper, the consistent practice Mrs Tan made us do did accumulate as time goes by. I am proud that the majority students in our Chinese band 1 class obtained an ‘A’ for Chinese. I am so proud of being Mrs Tan’s student. But things turn out different when I entered college. Now, my essay writing sucks like hell. In the past, Mrs Tan used to praise me for my good essay. There was even once when Mrs Tan wanted to publish one of my essays in the newspaper. That was totally awesome. But looking at things now, I am totally embarrasses. I get to meet my Chinese teacher very often because I always flunk my essay like crazy. How ironic it is?
I am totally exhausted after my oral presentation to Mr Sum, my project work teacher. I would say that he is a meticulous person. He takes special notice to the size and color of the fonts; size of the pictures etc. This is totally opposite to Mdm Lim, the moderator who assesses us when Mr Sum was away. She takes special notice of our presentation skills, not really focusing too much on our slides. What the both of them have said totally contradict each other! I am so confused right now. For once, one of them said my pacing was alright, but another said I was too fast. Argh… This is so irritating!

-siqi

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008 10:50 PM ♥

I have been feeling a bit down this week. Perhaps is because of the coming mother tongue ‘A’ level and the project work oral presentation. Hopefully things would turn out to be better after that.

I really appreciate the girls from 08S07 for trying to cheer me up. Thanks girls. Your comments really did cheer me up, I know I am special. Thanks for all the encouragement and letting me know that you guys are behind me. In fact, I do not mend to attract any attention from writing on my private message, but now I do realized that people did notice what others wrote on their private message. What is wrong with this: ‘Jesus didn’t have to go through half of the pain I’m experiencing now. At least he knew he was special. I have no such assurances’? I do not understand why people seem to react to this.'

I regretted for not joining the girls and guys to watch High School Musical 3 after lessons. I have always wanted to watch it as soon as possible, but I simply let this opportunity slipped away from my fingers. Oh my! Now I have to wait after my mother tongue ‘A’ level. Crap. What could I possibly be thinking at that time? What stopped me from going? I got it. Perhaps I was convinced by Sheryl in the point in time to attend care group over this movie trip. It must be her, she is really influential! =)

I am totally not into the games during the care group. I have simply no idea what is going on around me. I have touched my bible since ages, and I do not care to memorize what chapters go before or after what. I am not interest in that. I see no reason why I should do it, what is the reason behind it? To show how spiritual we are in reading the bible every day? I am totally caught in a surprise when Nicole wanted me to go for the ‘Word for life’ or ‘Word of life’ course. I think she must be kidding me. I am not like Joanne aka ‘T1’, who is so passionate about bible study. I am totally NOT into bible study. There is no way I am signing up for it. That $5 may seem insignificant to others, but it mean quite a lot to me. I am so broke to the extent that I am not sure if I could still enjoy my lunch in school the next day. How pathetic I am now? I am so broke to the extent that I do not even want to go for church camp anymore. No more movies, no more Buddy Hoaggies, no more karaoke. Life is going to be never the same again, not for the better, my goodness sake.

I am a bit obsessed with drawing the SAME border design again and again. I did a few for the cards for the J2; not only because it looks more artistic; it show my sincerity of spending my time to do something a little special. Hopefully, this would not be the last time.

-siqi
thx Pohee, Sheryl for ur concern!

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12:05 AM ♥

went to Hougang Mall in the early morning for Chinese Consultation
see, we very hardworking right =p
but still got to thank Mr Wong for taking time out to help us out
not forgeting a free breakfast at mac

random picture taken today:

aihui, shiyu,siqin & alwina

only half of my face

my own zhil lian photo again

siqin =)

i just like taking pic of my own
siqin's theory: take pic of yourselves before you turn old and uglyin pic =)

everyone of us took turn to wear the shade

like shiyu's new hairstyle a lot

she have the celebrity look arh in this pic

aihui & shiyu

siqin & alwina

again . . .

we were studying at food court

weird right ?

pose~

don't take pic of me !!!

well, all of us feel that alwina look as if she is blind with my shade on

hahhax

aihui got the elegant arh

i like her hair too

she just went to rebond her hair again

lastly, my turn

i got that childish look arh

i wonder if this is good or bad

omg saw this outside the foodcourt

this is so cute ~

interesting pick

alwina

this chair is like . . .

siqin

eating the pudding + ice cream thinggy

somemore got topping de

this is damn nice

my face is missing

with coconut topping

the topping will harden after a while

kawaii right ?

this is really interesting

first time see this

when sleep went i got home

forget to take my lens again so my eyes are like damn red

hopefully it will get better soon so that i can wear it to sch tomorrow

3 more days to A LEVEL CHINESE !!!

jia you bahx, everyone ~

siqin

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Sunday, October 26, 2008 10:23 PM ♥

Mother tongue ‘A’ level is drawing close, and I am still unprepared for it. With the few more days I have before the actual paper, I guess I better do something wise or I would have to take the paper again for the second time. Touch wood. My mother tongue is not as good as I thought. I think I could only obtain the maximum grade ‘B’ if I am lucky.

I am recalling what Qin has told me while both of us were having our dinner at East point. Seriously, I think what she said makes a lot of sense to me. Perhaps, a third person could see the bigger picture better? Hopefully this is true.

Even though I missed the ‘Freedom’ service on Saturday, I heard from Kim that the ESS was very cool. I think it must be. I hope that the ESS was a successful one for the TPJC care group. Hope so. I admit that I intentionally scheduled my tuition on a Saturday afternoon so that I could miss the ESS. Do not ask me why I dislike ESS service, because I simply just do not like it. Too boring and dry for a person like me. Personally, I feel that ESS service is not as good as the usual ones. Even though there may be performances or whatever, it does not interest me much. Perhaps, I am not even put God in priority. I am a bad salt and light.

For some time, I always tend to keep my feelings to myself. I do not want to tell others is not because I am afraid of them, but I respect them. I believe no one like to hear people comment about themselves. Neither do I. So, I usually would just bottle up my feelings. Even though I know that this practice is not healthy, I continue to do so. But for once, I am going to reveal them. Recalling what Qin told me while both of us were having dinner at East point; I do realize that what she said makes a lot of sense. Maybe I should take up her suggestions and tell others how I feel; this would then be fair to them. Hopefully I hope I am doing it right. I am wondering if I should attend care group or not. Maybe I should use the opportunity to hang about with my friends. Perhaps I would be happier? Most probably will, I guess.

-siqi

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Saturday, October 25, 2008 5:26 PM ♥

I woke up exceptionally today at 7am. I am doing this because of my OCIP trip, or I will never wake up that early on a Saturday morning. This really shows how much I cherished this opportunity I was blessed with. Surprisingly, I am at home in this hour. I should be at Somerset by now, not at home. Unfortunately, I have to shift my tuition to this afternoon due to my appointment for vaccination.
Having 2 needles poking into my 2 arms is not as bad as I thought. I feel numb than pain. I met up with my classmates who are going for the vaccinations at 8am, Simei MRT station. As what I have expected, Phoebe and Naquiyah were late again. But that does matters a lot. We turned out to be the latest group to arrive at Clinic L; all others have reached long ago. Then, it was the time where most people were afraid of. That was vaccination time! I guess only Wendy and Phoebe were scared of having the injections, the rest were still alright. I am not afraid of taking injections, it is nothing to me. It feels as if an ant has bitten me, nothing more than that. I admit that the first shot was less painful than the second one. I guess for a skinny person like me, it does make a different any way. No offence to anyone. After the injections, I have 2 ugly plasters pasted on both my arms. I just cannot stop laughing when Yvonne realized that the nurse has pasted the plaster wrongly. The plaster was placed way too below. That sounds really funny to me! The nurse is so blind.
My arms are aching like crazy now. Oh my! I cannot even lift up my both hands. I really feel like a handicap right up. 2 weeks and 6more days to my trip to India. Whoo hoooo! Really forward to that!

-siqi

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11:57 AM ♥

OMG i m damn crazy for the songs in HSM 3: Senior Year
here is one of my favourite
i also like " The boys are back" and the final song for HSM
the movie is so damn nice & not forgeting sweet

random upload of pic
was quite busy with my OP and i somehow begin t like kids
perhaps because i keep finding pic of them??
still a dota noob . . . no improvement since i dun play it often
got to chiong A lvl chinese
HAVING CHINESE A LEVEL PAPER THIS THURSDAY !!!
must do well and then burn my textbooks
still got I & R to do and then lastly my final OP A LEVEL !!!
life is hard man, not that fun as what is in HSM =p

siqin

siqin again

siqin & sherilyn
went watch HSM 3 tgt yesterday
i look retard

siqin

this is what happen to alwina's shoe =)

and lastly,

my all-time favourite arashi

i like their dance step lotts

siqin

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Friday, October 24, 2008 11:26 PM ♥

Recalling the amount of time I have spent in TPJC, I can’t stop thinking about how much I have changed over this period of time. Have I grown for the better, or not? I am sure that it would not be for me to judge. But I am very certain about one thing. My first year in TPJC is definitely not an easy year. Things have been happening around me, regardless good or bad. But everybody still has to move on. I have seen how much people have changed over this period of time; people grow and become more mature in their thinking. I would say that it is great.

Time changes and people change too. Sometimes, I feel that I no longer understand the people around me. Or should I say that people no longer understand me? I feel terrible when these familiar faces slowly become strangers to me. This feeling is really terrible! How I wish to know what is going on in their lives that turned them this way. The laughter and smile we used to have had disappeared. Everything is gone, nothing left.

I could still barely remember that people used to ask me, “Why are you so quiet?” I would usually give them a smile and try to avoid answering the question. But in fact, what could I say when there is nothing to be said? What could I say when no one bothers to listen? What could I say if people treat me as if I am invisible? Perhaps silence is the best alternative.
I have been trying to step out of my comfort zone, overcoming the fears I used to have. True enough, I managed to overcome some of them. I would say that more could be done.

Humans are animals that cannot be satisfied. No matter how much as have, they would still be asking for more. Me myself is also an ordinary human being, I am also a person with greed. I have high expectation for others, but I do not have it for myself. How ironic is that? I really do not want to become like the rest of the people in the world, becoming the slave for money. I believe that it is definitely not the purpose of life! So, what do I want in life? Time for me to think about that.

-siqi
personal reflection

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5:03 PM ♥

went watch High School Musical 3 : Senior Year TODAY with sherilyn

rox man !!!

there was like so many people q-ing for the tickets & i manage to buy it

it is so sweet ~

lurbb it lotts

siqin

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008 9:05 PM ♥

Oral presentation dry run is merely 24 hours away, and I am still not fully prepared for it. For once, I no longer worried about myself being able to memorize my script. I am more worried about myself not able to deliver my speech in a proper sequence. I tend to jumble up everything when I am feeling nervous. But I am glad that I did saw my own improvement in today oral presentation. It is very encouraging for me.
For the first time, I begin to question about whether I should keep my love for God in top priority. Why I cannot have the love for my family and friends at the same level of priority as my love for God? Why?
I simply love hanging out with the girls in my class, even more than the people in care group. Perhaps I can strongly feel the sense of belonging when I am with my class, and also see my self-worth as well. Maybe it is because of my low self-esteem that makes me think this way? I am usually alright when I am out with my classmates, but things do not go well when I am with the care group. The people in the class are those bunch of people who makes me laugh. I simply like them a lot. I can truly be myself when I am with them, they are willing to accept the way I am. I am just one human too, I do not like to change. It seems that all my smile and laughter are gone without my friends, they are important.
I think my ‘emo’ mood is back again. It is time to be an ‘emo kid’ again. The time has come for me to hate the world and let the world hate me.

-siqi

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008 6:18 PM ♥

I have been practising hard for my oral presentation over these few days. Maybe not that hard, i suppose? Some situation turns out beyond what i have expected. May be good or bad. However, all the things will simply push me on to a greater height. I came to this realisation that it is time to plan what i want after my 'A' level. I have been so satisfied with what i have now, and i never had thought about preparing for my future. But now, i know it is time. Perhaps it is quite late now, but it is always better to start now than never.

Today 'dry dry run' was better than what i have expected. Even though it is merely a scrap pass, i think that more can be done before my actually 'dry run'. I do hope that things will turn out to be even better on the actual day for me. Hopefully. It was a total bad day for me without eating anything throughout the day in college. A hungry person is an angry person. Yes, i am one. I can hardly enjoy a meal these few days, as oral presentation simply drives me nut. Fortunately, everything ended pretty soon, and i was able to have a proper lunch after lessons. I went with Pohee, Wendy, Phoebe, Sheryl, Yvonne and Calista to eat at the 'eighteen chef' .( i hope i got it right) i would say that the pasta was still alright, pretty filling for the stomach. Worth trying.

Unfortunately, 'vacination day' is coming if i did not get the dates wrongly. I simply hate injections! i will have to take not 1, but 2 injections. OH MY! But for the sake of my health, i am leave with no choice. Crap.

-siqi

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Monday, October 20, 2008 10:40 PM ♥

radom upload of pictures because i m busy with my OP now
i m too nervous to speak in front of the audiences

OMG, what should i do ???

went to Living Spring 15 anniversary on Sunday
went to Yunnan Restaurant for lunch as part of their celebration
saw some RR but didn't really talk to them except for crystal who say hii to me

the food is damn nice, especailly the dessert

siqi & siqin

siqi became a coke addict

i wonder how they did this

siqi & siqin again

went PS on saturday after pw meeting
went there buy laptop case

siqi eating her jap. food
my dinner

i simply love the mochii

siqi & siqin
reflection of siqin

went for CAC trip on friday so left school early

i learn a lot of things & got a free ride back to school

not forgetting pm at Parkway

siqin

i lurbb bbt

went k-box with alwina, shiyu, sherilyn, zhixu, livert, dickson & samuel on dunno when
my voice sux
but i still prefer to sing JJ's song, especailly sha shou
that's my favourite song okay !!!
had dinner at pastamania after that