Tuesday, August 22, 2006 2:39 PM ♥


just came bck from sch not long again didn't eat anythin cuz dun feel like eating hatez my life so boring i feel as if i m followin a daily time-table no freedom at all but stillquite packed durin week day cuz got x-tra programme 2day got a-maths test still ok not really as difficult as wat qi told mii but did some qn wrongly nvm goin 2 be sch holiday soon n teacher day i dun think i goin back my pri sch cuz quite xianz rather stay at home or maybe go out tis sunday is my dad's birthday duno wat 2 buy 4 him cuz must buy somethin which can be used in daily life so tat ll not 'waste' money duno wat 2 buy 4 him hatez buyin present 4 my parents o so ve problem in whether wat 2 buy 4 them well, as for my frienz it is so easy 4 mii cuz at about or same age ya, started 2 collect postcard recently cuz lack of them got 2 'hunt' 4 it ... ... may i be happier 2moro, guess i won't all thx 2 C.O make mii ve 2 stay bck

-siqin

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Sunday, August 20, 2006 11:28 AM ♥


yesterday went 4 service with qi it was really vry fun we met cj n xl be4 goin 4 the service 2gether it was really vry crowded met some frienz like hj, jade, joyce (duno if i spell it correctly) n many more they seem quite surprised when they saw mii cuz long time didn go 4 service i like the worship best can sing, dance, shout so enjoyin keep jumping around like a bunny the service ended at arond 5+ around tat n we went 4 dinner with the care gp the frienz over there was really vry friendly 2 us so get along with them well at least i won't feel so shy tat day got meeting so mi n qi left earlier n went 2 shop around be4 goin 2 T.M again wanted 2 buy a gift 4 qi cuz she convert last Saturday n wanted 2 buy postcard but unable 2 find we went bck 2 T.M again cuz i wanted 2 buy somethin we went bck at around 8+ goin 9 so really must learn how 2 manage my time ve 2 study 4 chem n phy test on Mon may god bless mii~

-siqin

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Saturday, August 12, 2006 1:15 PM ♥


ever feel so helpless or should i say hopeles doesn't noe wat 2 do n wat i should do i seem do be alone whenever i ve trouble y is tat so maybe becuz i m just so problematic i just hope i can go sch soon at least i can occupy my time with school work so tat i dun feel so helpless dun understand tat y i face more trouble than been rewarded y i always seem 2 be alone when i nid help nvm maybe i m just so unlucky in my life maybe really hope tat i can get a gd break maybe dun ve 2 go sch 4 1 month or so quite impossible i think still ve 3 weeks be4 the next holiday i think so not vry sure but watever is it i learn 2 rely everything on myself i o so realise tat i start 2 lose confidence in others i duno y but i dun think i can trust other easily again too much bad 'experience' dun wish 2 mention wat r they i dun think anybody can change mii, i guess . . .

-siqin

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Thursday, August 10, 2006 11:07 AM ♥


long time didn update my blog or is it because i ve not used my com 4 1 week so didn really update it any way doin it rite now weird~ my sis becoming so weird suddenly wan 2 do good deeds yesterday went K.F.C 4 dinner n she told mii tat she like 2 help others wanted 2 do good deeds i was feelin a kind of weird tat's not her character she becoming more n more weird suddenly say tat she wanna help others i was thinkin do she mean doing gd deed after shouting at mii with vulgarities*(not sure if i spell tat correctly, nvm) weird ~ but i not goin 2 care she just do wat she think is rite no comment or should i say i dun wan 2 bother i think it is better 4 mii 2 act blurr then to bother i thought tat's the best way wat i usually do ve a lot of fun tis days doesn't ve 2 face my books ya i think so always go home late at least dun ve 2 always face my parent watch a few movies vry interesting suddenly like 2 watch movie also duno y nvm learn 2 relax myself

-siqin

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haiz....

Tuesday, August 08, 2006 11:09 AM ♥


i really don't understand y pp wanna break their promise. some say tat promise is meant 2 be broken. i really hate tat. y do i ve 2 keep a promise i ve made but others don't. shouldn't they got punished? y can't pp kept 2 their promise. if they don't then y should i? this world is so complicated! pp blame me 4 breakin promise, then wat can i do when they break theirs? this is so unfair. so UNFAIR! this world is makin me confuse n mixed up. i no longer can tell whether it is true or not! wat ve this world done 2 me! how i wish i can leave this place n nvr returns... ... this place ve nothin which make mi stay. i hate this, i hate tat, i hate my life. how i wish i can go 4ever alone when nobody can find me. let mi go 4ever MISSING. -siqi

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Doin a GOOD DEED... ...

Saturday, August 05, 2006 4:09 PM ♥


Does doin gd deed make my life better? i m now strugglin 2 overcom my problem(not able 2 communicate wif pp). 2day i just done somethin gd. i volunteer 2 help doin CIP(community service) 4 5 hours. i so happy 2 do somethin gd wif my classmate. but sometime i realise wat gd deed i did, it nvr pay mi back off. ii noe tat doin this gd deed should not except somethin 4 return. but isn't tat wat i help someone, they would help me back? i sometime feel tat i should do anythin gd since no one really appreciate,they took it 4 granted. when someone ask me 4 help, i dun understand y i would be willin 2 help. however when i need help, i ve 2 beg 4 it. IS THIS FAIR 2 ME? i just hop those whom i help can help me back in return. maybe this is now i understand some bein heartless, havin a stone heart. no one seem 2 appreciate wat i ve done. pp blame me 4 my mistake, pp only see my weakness. i ve change a lot. i m still changin, 2 overcom e problem of not able 2 communicate wif e outside world, i need time 2 change. i just hop pp appreciate wat i ve done be4 i ve a stone heart which make me as cruel as u nvr in ur life imagine... ... -siqi

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Friday, August 04, 2006 7:33 PM ♥




>>Princess Hour

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6:48 PM ♥


2day got ASD rehersal so tirin came home about six or so extremely exhausted felt so tired some more yesterday slept at twelve thirty so dun ve enough sleep the lesson so borin then o so got MT ca rite letter still ok but dun think ll score well nvm then after sch wait for the liu qin group so tat all go lunch 2gether 2day's co dam bored cuz practice the SYF song duno how 2 ply cuz no one teach mii e instructor always didn teach mii wan so i must be very independent everythin learn on my own like the previous year SYF song all must practice n practice at least now i become more independent not like last time always depend on others being stress lately i mean extremely stress tis week too much things 4 mii 2 do all line up so really hope tat i can tke a break if not sure go berserk cuz ve being so busy from mon 2 fri better 2moro i hope

-siqin

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006 5:13 PM ♥


2moro got 2 CA A-maths n social studies of course vry tired cuz come back so late some more ve to study n memorise 4 s.s 2day got my chem result didn really do well i ll say got few careless mistake loss a few marks dun think i do well tis time haiz hope time flies faster so tat i can take a gd rest soon from my busy n boring life really feel like runnin from my current life always study n study like hell like tat goin crazy but like goin to sch cuz vry fun although quite stress o so but can 'ply' wth frienz chat then still ok rather then stayin at home n do nothin x-cept starin on the wall
boring~

-siqin

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