K-session with Cuties

I acknowledge that I was super upset by the fact that I never got into the hall camp. I mean I am super pissed off. But this means more time for me to do what I want before uni life unfold .

Have been planning to go exercise so that I can wear my new sport shoe but it always fail. I always can't find the motivation to push myself to exercise. Probably will try jogging these few days.

Well, maybe I really can't take disappointment. That's why I told myself not to ever have expexctation or hope on people again, because I fear disappointment. I am afraid I can't handle them. If I don't expect anything that if I get it, I take it as a bonus for me. If don't, I won't be so affected by it. I know this is so selfish of me, but probably this is the best for me now.

Don't get it wrong, it doesn't mean I don't trust people or blaming other people. It is just me. I just want to help myself cope better for now.

God, I pray you will take the disappointment in my heart away soon.

siqin