Saturday, June 19, 2010 
8:59 AM ♥
Have been busy in my own world lately, going out after work almost everyday and haven't really being staying at home. I won't say things are fine for me because seriously they are not. I am bombed by all the ntu admission stuff and also caught up with my own things that I totally forgetten the fact that I do need time for myself and people around me too.
Firstly, my accomodation in NTU. I seriously don't want to stay in hostel but for the sake of the tution fee, I have to comply to the term and conditions of the scholarship that I am taking. I am sure I didn't tell much people that I actually gotten a scholarship from NTU. This is because I thought it will really be insensitive to go around to brag about having scholarship. C'mmon, I know how it feels like if I haven't gotten one because of not-so-good grades. And I really dread the idea of having to live in hostel, a totally unfamiliar envirnoment. Did I also mention that most of the people around me actually went to NUS instead and those who are in NTU usually will not want to stay in hostel. If I have a choice, I won't consider hostel at all okay. So now, I have to accept the face that I got to stay in NTU hostel for one whole year and up till now, I still can't find someone close enough to live together. Or should I just randomly sign up alone and got assign to live with someone I don't know at all.
I have never thought that friendship require so much commitment. I am too used to living life my own way. I do realise that I have been too caught up with my own stuff that I am neglecting many people around me. I did tried to do something about it and I did. I have already resigned and will be leaving the company next friday. But honestly, I was very hurt when I saw the message because I didn't know that I was such a b**** ( I meant I felt that way) and I wasn't preapred for it at all. Fine I tried to make an effort to msg some old classmates or friends after the incident. But I still feel super lousy.
This morning I manage to wake up on time but then forget to bring my hp out. And the problem is that I don't know if I have lost it outside or left it at Sam's house. Guess what, I need to meet June in the evening as well as follow up with some conversations. I feel so low now because my morning is so screw up.
Went to Sam's house on Monday night to give him a birthday-in-advance surprise. I was so glad that he didn't expect me to came up to him with a self-decorated cake. It is so difficult to decorate a cake okay. I almost ruined it when I did the icying, so I just spam the flower decoration onto the part that I almost ruined. Will post the photos soon after I recover my hp.
As for why I disappear from my desk yesterday for so long, I cried. I guess most people knew it went I came back because my eyes were like swollen. Thank for the concern, Ting Ting & Reng Fu. You two are very much appreciated !
siqin
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Saturday, June 19, 2010 8:59 AM ♥
Have been busy in my own world lately, going out after work almost everyday and haven't really being staying at home. I won't say things are fine for me because seriously they are not. I am bombed by all the ntu admission stuff and also caught up with my own things that I totally forgetten the fact that I do need time for myself and people around me too.
Firstly, my accomodation in NTU. I seriously don't want to stay in hostel but for the sake of the tution fee, I have to comply to the term and conditions of the scholarship that I am taking. I am sure I didn't tell much people that I actually gotten a scholarship from NTU. This is because I thought it will really be insensitive to go around to brag about having scholarship. C'mmon, I know how it feels like if I haven't gotten one because of not-so-good grades. And I really dread the idea of having to live in hostel, a totally unfamiliar envirnoment. Did I also mention that most of the people around me actually went to NUS instead and those who are in NTU usually will not want to stay in hostel. If I have a choice, I won't consider hostel at all okay. So now, I have to accept the face that I got to stay in NTU hostel for one whole year and up till now, I still can't find someone close enough to live together. Or should I just randomly sign up alone and got assign to live with someone I don't know at all.
I have never thought that friendship require so much commitment. I am too used to living life my own way. I do realise that I have been too caught up with my own stuff that I am neglecting many people around me. I did tried to do something about it and I did. I have already resigned and will be leaving the company next friday. But honestly, I was very hurt when I saw the message because I didn't know that I was such a b**** ( I meant I felt that way) and I wasn't preapred for it at all. Fine I tried to make an effort to msg some old classmates or friends after the incident. But I still feel super lousy.
This morning I manage to wake up on time but then forget to bring my hp out. And the problem is that I don't know if I have lost it outside or left it at Sam's house. Guess what, I need to meet June in the evening as well as follow up with some conversations. I feel so low now because my morning is so screw up.
Went to Sam's house on Monday night to give him a birthday-in-advance surprise. I was so glad that he didn't expect me to came up to him with a self-decorated cake. It is so difficult to decorate a cake okay. I almost ruined it when I did the icying, so I just spam the flower decoration onto the part that I almost ruined. Will post the photos soon after I recover my hp.
As for why I disappear from my desk yesterday for so long, I cried. I guess most people knew it went I came back because my eyes were like swollen. Thank for the concern, Ting Ting & Reng Fu. You two are very much appreciated !
siqin
♡
Have been busy in my own world lately, going out after work almost everyday and haven't really being staying at home. I won't say things are fine for me because seriously they are not. I am bombed by all the ntu admission stuff and also caught up with my own things that I totally forgetten the fact that I do need time for myself and people around me too.
February 2006