Sunday, November 15, 2009 
1:28 AM ♥
I never knew that I’m someone worth praising. I’m just full of weakness, double standard, a loser, bitch … … whatever you could ever think of. For a moment ago, someone just called me to be a ‘steady’ friend, making me feel so touch. Even though it’s mere few words, but I’m glad that at least someone can see something in me, something which can make me proud of myself. I’m so unworthy to be in the kingdom of God. I have done nothing which can make God proud of me. I failed in my academic, character, friendship and even relationship with people; a total loser would be the best description for me. If God answers prayer, why doesn’t He answer mine? Am I asking too much from God to just take me away and be with Him? While I was listening to the music ‘Tears of life’, I just felt strongly that I would never be fortunate enough to see the clear sky after the storm like others usually do. It seems that it’s forever storming in my world; there would never be a day where the storm would stay calm. I don’t expect anyone to understand the feeling right now, but this is not me dwelling in self pity.
-siqi
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Sunday, November 15, 2009 1:28 AM ♥
I never knew that I’m someone worth praising. I’m just full of weakness, double standard, a loser, bitch … … whatever you could ever think of. For a moment ago, someone just called me to be a ‘steady’ friend, making me feel so touch. Even though it’s mere few words, but I’m glad that at least someone can see something in me, something which can make me proud of myself. I’m so unworthy to be in the kingdom of God. I have done nothing which can make God proud of me. I failed in my academic, character, friendship and even relationship with people; a total loser would be the best description for me. If God answers prayer, why doesn’t He answer mine? Am I asking too much from God to just take me away and be with Him? While I was listening to the music ‘Tears of life’, I just felt strongly that I would never be fortunate enough to see the clear sky after the storm like others usually do. It seems that it’s forever storming in my world; there would never be a day where the storm would stay calm. I don’t expect anyone to understand the feeling right now, but this is not me dwelling in self pity.
-siqi
♡
February 2006